Sorry I've Been Away

Well what can I say other then I'm sorry I've been rubbish the last few months. I started this blog with so much excitement and dedication, but my crazy life has got in the way. It's been a fully packed summer, so let me fill you in and get you up to speed…

May is always a mental month, it's the month I shoot my collections for the year. So a lot of planning, meetings, and most probably some crying, just to get it all ready for that one day of shooting. I was also working hard to get my entries in for Creative Heads Most Wanted and It List awards, getting home late and finishing off the dossiers and videos ready to post off. This year I had the added stress of commuting and also trying to find my rhythm in a new job. By May Matt was also commuting to his new job, we weren't getting much time with each other or at home much at all. To be honest until our trip to Milan at the end of the month I didn't have a proper day off. I feel like commuting would have been easier if we had a basic 9-5 job, but when you don't finish till 8pm (9pm a few nights for Matt) it means not getting home till nearly mid-night, just to get back up at 6am to do it all over again. I'm not saying any of this to get sympathy, on the contrary, I bring my work load on myself, and the whole point of my blog is to show you the good, the bad, the ugly and the sleep deprivation of getting yourself to the top of your game in our industry.

June came round quickly and I was so ready to move and get rid of the awful commute. It was taking me 2 hours door to door morning and night, that's an extra 20 hours on already a 50+ hour week. Matt and I, having different schedules, would go look at places to rent by ourselves and film it for the other one to see, if we loved it we'd try to get a second viewing for the other person. But you have to move so bloody quickly when securing a place in London. I was trying to not stress myself out, even though it's inevitable. I let all the agency's know that we owned our home currently so was in no rush, I just wanted to find us the right place, I wanted a home here. When you do work crazy hours, having somewhere to come home to and relax in is the most important thing. We put some offers in but none of them were quite right. Then all of a sudden we had the opportunity to both view a property together, the first one of the whole search, and it was perfect. It allowed my boys and was situated perfectly for both our commutes into work. Finally life in london was becoming real. Knowing that our london place was finallaly getting sorted, I had to concentrate on finishing off my award entries and get them posted off. Then we had Glastonbury festival at the end of the month which was the perfect weekend for us to switch off to the craziness of life and spend some time with each other and our friends. It was the perfect weekend of reconnection, mindfulness and of course dancing!

July and August. July was our move month, and the big question on all our minds was… will that Sofa pit fit through the door. Haha. And the answer… no! But we were able to get it through the window thanks to the massive help of our family and friends. I can't really describe how mental the move was, or how unprepared I was for it to be as mental. Or the emotional roller coaster that comes with moving to a brand new place. My boys were stressed out and hid for the first 2 weeks in the cupboard. Gatsby eventually came out of hiding and discovered a new world to explore in the flat and is loving life. Hendrix is finally settling day by day, he suffers with stress and anxiety, he came out in a lot of hot spots and point blank was refusing to use the litter trays, which then stressed us out. I feel the last two months I've gone from ‘oh my god what have I made us do’ to ‘oh my god this is the best thing ever’. We finally had a week off at the end of August and I feel it was the most important week for us. It gave us the opportunity to fully settle in, find our feet and explore our new area. Friends and family came to visit which helps to make your new place feel like home. I actually feel now like this place is feeling more like ours than our last, and I'm looking forward to making lots of memories in it.

It's really hard when you have dreams and goals that your determined to make happen. Sometimes you reach them, or get what you've always wanted and it makes you question everything and wonder wether that's really what you wanted. And I'm telling you now that is not a bad thing, it means your human. London is my most favourite city in the world, and has been since I was a child. I can't remember exactly what age I was but I told my mum as a very young child this is where I will end up living. And now I'm here. Yes to some people london is dirty, rude and unfriendly, but to me it is rich in history, full of adventure, opportunity and inspiration. London is now and always has been my home. Yet I still questioned why I took myself away from where I lived, an easy life surrounded by family, friends and familiarity; to a brand new place where I don't really know anyone, and those that I do know still live about half an hour away. I've pushed Matt out his comfort zone, stressed out my boys. All for my own dream. But I can finally say it feels worth it, I can now take deep breaths and fully enjoy what we've done, and the home we have created here. And I can't explain how excited I am for the opportunities that lie ahead for us in our new city we now call home.

So I am extremely sorry I have been away and neglected my blog, Vlog and ultimately you guys. This summer has been a mental one. But one that has set me up for more amazing adventures to come and I can't wait to share them with you. I'm not going to promise I won't have pauses like this in the future because I can't promise that. Life gets mental. But I do promise to give you more attention, write more posts, get my vlogs out to your from all my trips and try and learn how to actually use mail chimp- one can hope anyway- to keep you updated on everything. Please keep letting me know what you'd like to see from me, and I will keep showcasing what it's like to live the life of The Hair Geek Uk.